nothing much happened this week.....alot of hmwk.....more stress from teachers....even more tired from training yesterday.....my back is aching....then yesterday HOD of maths came to talk to us and say our class not doing well and is below expectation and such then talk abt the teachers then it ended up wif around 2hrs+ of talking wif teachers....haiz.....from the way i see it.....if no one is willing to make a step forward or back we can all juz say sayonara to our emaths results.....oh yeah tmrw is 4schs combined sports meet.....sian gonna sit there and do absolutely nothing.....like what we did in sec1 and 2......and to make things worse its at bishan!!! y cant it be at bedok?? waste time lor....go all the way until so far.....at least bedok nearer....got back all the CT results liao....some.......oh wait.....actually all is as i expected......hahahaa....as i expected and always have predicted, i did well in both maths and i died in both humanities! WOW!!! -.-.....i feel very stressed liao....all the teachers are like "not enough time liao. u haf to wake up and work harder!", "only afew more weeks to prelims!!".......arghhhh.....at least ellen is keeping me from dying from stress......and portia's 'better off ted' is funny :D she is like some kind of evil boss yet she is cute in an evil way. hahaa too bad it stopped airing......watched finish both seasons liao.....now on to CSI:miami.....season 9 miss alot of episodes ler.....
i dont know how to say but exams seem even more stressed for me than others.....not only exams, class tests too......cuze actually i can take triple science but i didnt so im the top few for the class. if i went to triple science i would be the last few of the class....so since im the top few of the class there is always people trying to outdo me and it is f***ing irritating and stressful!!!! u will always want to keep ur standard there otherwise when u get back ur results then they would be like :"wah first time i win zexin at _____(watever subject)" i feel like juz shouting out yar yar u won me so what?!!?! they think that i do very well for exams....but the fact is when im compared to other classes my results are way worse than theirs! i haf no idea also y teachers are always expecting so much from me!! when i do badly they go :"zexin i expected more from u" this happened to me twice!!! once in sec1 and one now......y cant they get it that science has never been my forte!!! my forte is maths!!! thats y if chem has maths in it i will do well!!!! instead of watever enthalpy change redox reaction and rate of change!!!! it sucks!! the first time in sec1 when the teacher told me that, i was surprised she had so high expectations out of me. so for some reason the following test i got highest ;D (im not kidding its true) but somehow along the 4 yrs that doesnt motivate me anymore......it juz makes me feel like they're expecting too much from me.......i really wan to do well i really do.....but for dunno what unknown reason i always suck at humanities and chem!!
by the breadmonster:D ~i'd catch a grenade for'ya~
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