This always fucking happens

Why is this always happening?!!! Fuck! It is exactly what is happening before?!!!! Whatever i try to plan it always fucking fails because of one reason or another. Do those fucking ppl even see how much fucking effort im putting in to try to make this work? Or m i puttin in too much fucking effort to try to make a day for the ppl i love more enjoyable?! Is that a fucking sin? Why the fuck u guys make me seem like i never think this through. I thought this fucking through, but none of u have given me a concrete and useful fucking suggestion that i can use. U huys can juz plan it on ur own i give up being the one who always tries. Do u know how fucking hard it is to haf everything u planned for be shattered in front of ur fucking eyes?! When ppl dun give a fuck abt how much effort u put in cuze they dont believe in the same things as u do. Fuck la. Im tired. Im very tired. Why does this always happen to me? Fuck you life. Is it cuze im trying too fucking hard? If it is tell me! Cuze taking the backseat would be so much fucking easier. Let everyone else do the fucking hard work and juz appear. This is why i dont want fucking responsibility cuze it always blows up in my fucking face!!!!